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if only you knew what I was thinking and felt how I feel...I did say if only..
it's already taking affect..this is your answer.
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[07 Jun 2005|07:30pm] |
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yay! I got my computer back. I had fuckin 148 viruses! fuckin people trying to send me shit..they have no lives. anyway..I saw Liser's new puppy today [a pit] it's soo fuckin cute. I saw jaime. he's all "what's up Ashley" as he was leaving. He kept staring at me and I wanted to yell "Yeah you had this and you know you want it back but I've found the love of my life now!" I left at 5:15 and I got home and set my computer up. I had to re-install everything because I had to delete all my shit. I got to keep my music though. I think some songs are missing =/ anyway..I'm not done yet so goodnight.
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[13 Apr 2005|05:32pm] |
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but at the same time, nothing has happened lol. I have a BOYFRIEND now and I live in san fran with vicki and alexia =oD and I'm HELLA happy! I'm going to be a bridesmaid in my sister's wedding and I just got my dress today and I'm in love with it. I got it fitted and all that good stuff. they're taking out the zipper in the back and replacing it with a corset with a black ribbon. it's going to look GREATTT!! better than tony the tiger! lmao. life's better now =o] I've been in like the GREATEST mood ever since I moved. I love it..new pictures...
( check em out maynee!! )
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[25 Feb 2005|12:51pm] |
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I went to Ernie's party in e.p.a. there was like 50-60 people there and i knew most of them. I brought some parrot bay and made some good ass drinks for people but the bottle was gone in like 5 minutes lmao. there was some other stuff too and I spilled most of it on me when i was dancing, but it was alright because i got another cup! lmao! I was drunk off my ass and some fools drive up talking shit to all the girls. First they started saying shit to Michelle and mandy and then i came along to see what all the commotion was and then they're all what's your name and i was all Ashley and then the driver was all yeah what's your name bitch. I was all excuse me what bitch and the guy in the passenger seat was all you ain't nothing but a hoe because i was talking shit to them and i was all you don't even know me bitch and I ain't a fucking hoe, don't be trying to talk down to me. I was about to run up to the guy because everyone made me back up and shit and I was pulling my ass away from everyOne because they tried bringing me in the house and i was like in the fucking air tring to jump out of the little circle everyone was keeping me in and Ernie caught me.
Then supposedly the guy had a pistol so ernie got his and they took me in his room in the back and then I was all 'Ok I'm good' and then I ran out the room into the front of the hOuse and I was all where are those mother fuckers and Ernie's brother..i think edwin?! Was all 'they're gone' and i was all 'watch when they come back someones going to get popped in their motherfuckin mouth. but anyway...the night was cool after that. I drank some more and took like 2 hits off a blunt. It was just dandy. Then Ernie had to take me home around 12:30 because vicki's grandma wanted me to come home because I usually stay with her on weekends. I didn't wanna leave at like 10:30 because Yesenia had to be home and she was my ride so ernie said he would take me home. So yeah ..I came home and ate and passed out in vicki's bed. So now I'm getting ready to go to a show and after that, and Vicki and Liser I think are gonna do meth and me and alexia are just going to have a silly time lmaO. That's about it. Tomorrows my mommy's birthday! I'm gonna get her a balloon, a rose, and a gift certificate. Muah ha! Okie..that's all. Adios for now.
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[06 Feb 2005|01:12pm] |
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I knew my happiness wouldnt last for long. Lauren [a girl i know] calls me up. She asks me if i have a minute to talk and i said ya..soo she goes okay hold on..someone wants to talk to you. soo as a wait for somepne i dont know to come on the phone, i hear..."hey..this is jenny..jaimes ex." soo i was all hey wassup..soo she goes are you and jaime going out and i was all ya..and shes all for how long and i go..for like 2 or 3 weeks..why?! and shes all well..hes been cheating on you..cheating on you with me and we've had sex..and i was all "Okay.." for some reason..what she had just said did not bother me at all knowing that it's happened to me soo many times that i'm used to it. soo anyways..on with the conversation..she's all i wanted to hear for myself if you guys were really together and i was all ya, we are. and she's all well he's been telling me that he wanted me and only me and i was all well he's told me the same fuckin thing. and she's all well sweety..it's all i lie. then i was all you know what..deep down, i knew something had to be a lie. and then she was just telling me all this stuff and then she goes what are you doing tomorrow and i was all nothing and she's all well i get off of work at 6 soo if you want i could meet up with you and we'll go see him and trip him out. let him know we know wassup. so i was all i'm usually out by 5 and she's all well what if i take you hOme and i was all okay that's a possibility. so i'm just plOtting my shit..thinking about what i'm gonna say. then lauren gets on the phone and she goes are you okay and i was all ya i'm fuckin fine. she's all no cutting or anything and i was no i'm through with that shit..i'm not even gonna fuckin cry. i feel like i'ma laugh right now and she's all good. i kinda scared myself cause i sounded so calm, but i was really fuckin heated. I was so mad that i SWEAR my fuckin face was as red as my shirt. anyways..if he calls me, i'ma let it be known that i'm pissed and some how show him i know whats up. see..i'm not gonna say anything about his ex calling me..cause tomorrow, he's in for something he's never got. i'm gonna come up to him with his ex and bitch him out and then i'm gonna pop his ass right in the fuckin nose and hock a fat loogie and spit it in his face. it shall be fun! if he called me right now..i don't know what would happen. i don't know what my reactiOn to him would be. i swear..i was actually going to let myself fall for him..but i told myself to be careful and i was careful. I didn't get tOo attatched and i'm hella proud of myself because that happens to me so easily and i get hurt so bad. this time..i just wanna laugh. not a single fuckin tear is gonna come out of my eyes. The part that hurts though is that its' happened again..and even though someone can hurt me the worst..i'll still have feelings for them somewhere in my heart. this boy was getting to me. the things he said..fuck..if only that shit were true..i think i would be spending my life with him. i wanted to too. =/ i always pick the wrong guys..it's just my fuckin luck. it all happens for a reasOn though..and that reason..i don't think i'll ever know...
so i have no valentines for v-day =/ never have..probably never will. guys are caca lOl. anyways..thas all for right nOw. adios <3
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[12 Jan 2005|05:48pm] |
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I dont really remember. Friday I stayed home to look for my car which was a fuckin waste of my time. I could have been doing better things =) then I went to go look for a new phone cause mine like fuckin melted or something. I cant see the screen and then I went to Vicki's, we smoked like the whole fucking day lmao. I dont remember what happened but I guess I passed out and woke not knowing where I was or who was with me. So ya..then me, alexia, and vicklynn went to go see Tyler play hockey. Ooh! those little fuckers on the other team were makin me mad. #36 and #63..I'm gonna find them and beat their asses lmao. Then there were these two little kids and they looked soo cute cause they were walking around holding hands and kissing and then I was all hey is that your girlfriend and the little boy was all no...thats my sister and I was all what?! lmao..nasty shit. but yeah I'm gonna wait for my nerdo to call me =)
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I hate the world right now. I only get half of my comments..i dont know why..but I'm mad. grr..I'ma shoot someone REAL soon. I'm in the worst mood..ask me why!..no..dont cause i dont fuckin know. Okie, thats enough..nite.
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| I'm 18!! |
[11 Dec 2004|09:50am] |
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lol..my birthDAY was cool..hopefully this weekend will be better or the next since i can't really do much. thursday we had dinner at eriks cause his mommy wanted to cook for us =o] and today vicki's birthday and sunday Im having a family party at my house. so next week is for me cause i wanna go out! lol..hope everybody's cool, i would say i'll try and update more and post comments but that would be a lie =X school's all bad =o/ boys..blah..went to disneyworld and that was alright..it was just me and my mom so i couldn't get all hyphy or nothing lol. for my birthday..which was the 7th..i went to the mall with alexia bought a cute lil outfit =o] then we were driving back to redwood and saw this guy in a big ass truck and we tried to holla at him LMAO! good times. we were waiting for marleena but her ass was laggin it. went to eriks after and mike smoked me out and i went home cause i had reservations for benihana's which was BOMB AS FUCK! i got some cool shit and hella balloons and all the works..you know! but yeah...i dont know when the next time ill be updating but until then..I STILL LOVE YOU ALL!!! =o]
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